My personality lends itself to that of someone who is anxious, excited, laughs a lot, talks a lot and even approaches trouble with optimism.
I have a few personal beliefs that I’m certain I’ve never shared here. But, after the day I’ve had today, I think I might share. And, with this, I have to tell you that I am not a particularly religious person. I wasn’t raised in "A" church. We merely church-hopped. I managed to develop a few of my opinions (philosophy’s if you will) and after today, yea, this is a good time to share……before my head explode.
Philosophy Object #1: First of all, everything happens for a reason. Call it God, call it Karma, call it whatever you want. I truly believe that everything happens for a reason. This could go along the same lines as everything that happens has a lesson to be learned behind it, but that’s a little more complicated. I prefer to leave it at "Everything happens for a reason"
Philosophy Object #2: God did not make mistakes. Yes, I know, I’m referring to God. You can refer to a higher power, or however it is that you believe, but the fact, I don’t believe our creator made mistakes. Now, this one needs some explaining.
Explanation one comes through a situation involving my body called endometriosis. I have had 9 lap’s for it. Now, that could be construed as a mistake, when in reality, it was an opportunity for a doctor to become much more educated than he might have other wise.
I know, it might sound crazy to you, just mull it over, let it ferment and read on to explanation number two.
At the same time that I believe the endo was done for a reason and I explained why, I believe I have high blood pressure for a reason. I was given choices over my lifetime, and those choices have caused me to have high blood pressure, high cholesterol, etc.
In either case, God (or your creator) didn’t make mistakes, what he did was a masterful design.
Philosophy Object #3: This comes from scripture and since I’m not a big Bible reader or have never been exposed that often, I’m having to look it up, but I’m doing that, just for you, my sweet readers. With that, I found the scripture to say exactly he phrase that I’m searching for in any places except where people are terribly argumentative about it. Therefore, I’m going to tell you where it comes from, tell you my interpretation and you can make your own decision.
Apparently, 1 Corinthians 10:13 says "No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it." With that, my interpretation correlates with about 50% of the sites I researched. And, my thoughts are that this means, "God will not give you more than you can bear"
Now, part of my personality (boy I’m jumping around a lot eh?) is that I can be calm and cool in even the worst situations. It goes long with a couple little things I learned from my very vain father. One involved this in the way that many people approach nervous situations and that is to be confident, you know the logo "never let them see you sweat". The other piece of advice he had was this, "once you shower, dress and leave home, don’t look in a mirror more" Now of course this needs explaining, he doesn’t mean like never look ever again. He simply meant, get dressed in the mornings for school, leave home confident in my looks, my abilities, myself and don’t worry about my looks being more important than than anything. An example would be for instance that after I left home in the mornings for school, I really and truly did not brush my hair or do anything make-up wise until I was home for the night. I still do that unless there’s an occasion that I need special care.
Now, back to where I was going with the philosophy talk. Number one, everything happens for a reason; number two, God does not make mistakes; Number 3, God will not allow us to experience more than we can bear.
Now, with those thoughts guiding me, I can handle most any situation with grace. Later, I might fall apart and be a basket case, but in the here and now, I do quite well. About 3 months ago I told my husband that my proverbial plate was full. There was no room for anything else inside my head. Anything new that occurred or needed to be taken care of would simply have to be solved by another person. In other words, my plate was full and NO one was going to be given the right to force more stress and pressure on me.
Then, my mom was diagnosed with cancer. And, something already on my plate had to be shifted to that soup bowl because his was important. There are three things that I knew was aware that I imminent.
One of those was that after I had official been a licensed daycare, DHR would show up at random to do a center check. No issues here really, we do a good job and I fully believe that. The second was that I had to get busy working on some workman’s compensation quotes and get that taken care of. But, this was one that I had 30 days on and well, DHR should be happening first so that was pushed orotund on the plate.
The last one was that the people who monitor my food program would be coming for a year audit. Now, I should have known that this wasn’t something exact because first of all, you don’t get three days notice before you are audited. Right? Secondly, it was one of the technical assistants in the program, not an auditor. However, being that calm person that will handle it all until the bottom falls out, i merely worked on it some and left it knowing that it was sufficient.
Today, I had an appointment with the heart doctor at 9:00 but I had a new employee coming at 8:00 to new employee orientation with. I had a different appointment at 1. I changed both of those because obviously a new employee orientation is more important than my heart and I changed the latter because a "Pretend Audit" was more important that going to doctor who single handedly prevents me from chewing arms (and not always my own).
So, arrived at work at 7AM after a huge battle with my son over the kind of underwear he chose to wear. Still not phased, I had much more important matters. New employee orientation was interrupted about 10 times, the doctors appointments were changed and none of this phased me. I had time to scarf down about 2 bites of spaghetti and wow, the auditor who was really just a TA and a pretend auditor shows up.
Ok, I’ve had 2 huge soda’s and half of a lunch. I’m in need of a bathroom break bad, And, I ate what I managed to eat without anything else to drink. My day was un-raveling. Not because of the serious stuff, just from the normal everyday stuff.
The pretend audit went fine, the man left and let out a huge sigh of relief. And, in walks an employee to fill out an application and I knew she wouldn’t work but what do you do. Before she left, a woman came in about enrolling her twins, before they left, my kids got up from nap and were eating snack and then kids were getting off of the school bus.
I handled most of it like a champ. I did get sweaty but I really think it was hot it he center today. All was moving right along and it was nearing 5pm. And, at 5 PM I realized that I had the worst headache known to man. And, now, after I’ve successfully finished the most chaotic day (or at least one of them), I am alive. However, I have a monster headache and I’m headed for bed.
You know what? Who am I is about the best question I've heard in a week year. I am a woman, a mommy, a wife, a daughter, a granddaughter, a niece, a business owner but never an aunt. You got it, I tried to put them in the order that I believe they rank for me for importance. 